:: Lily in a pond ::
While commenting on a post of one of my blogger friends, Mai, I slipped a line about enjoying our “now’s”. Our present. Our current. Of where we are.
I come to realize how a big part of me remains like a child on the way I make “sulit” whatever it is that I have, or where I’m at. Like how kids forget the worries and all those included in the grown-up’s list. Enjoying all the happiness I can out of each moment, because I know that SOME moments don’t come twice.
While preparing for the wedding, James and I once again realized just how different we are. I often told him how important it is to me to make our moment beautiful. Not necessarily expensive, but beautiful. The line I’ve been quoting quiet frequently lately is, “50 years from now we will look back at this moment and we will have deep wonderful memories to go back to”.
(And we are way better in dealing with our being different from each other this time compared to before. Harmony in being different.)
I love where I am right now, who I’m with, what’s been happening in my life. And looking back, I barely see or felt any regrets on what I’ve done or been through in the past. Because in each moment worth remembering, moments which matters, I know I have given my ALL. Especially when it comes to people, things and events that are close to my heart… I only give my BEST. If it is not my best, then I make sure I do something to make up for it. Because, yeah, I feel bad when I give less than my ALL to something which means everything to me.
Other things I do half heartedly, some even slipped my mind… but when I love I gave ALL of my mind, attention and self into it. Be it towards a person or a hobby. That is just how I was built. And I have grown tired of apologizing for that. I’ll adapt, learn and adjust so I can also grow as a person, but I AM WHO I AM, charms and flaws all rolled into one wonder-eyed girl.
I do think and plan for the future. Maybe not just as detailed as I need them to be. And this part, I am more than willing to learn. Because that not so far future, will soon be my present, and I’m still going to enjoy it and make albums of memories with it, as I am doing now.
But while that distant future is still in planning stage, allow me to give my best in my Now, and this will be my gift not to myself, but to you. Life moves very fast, and while I plan for the future, I am more excited to the surprises held by the present.
My best Now.
p.s: Dili ni drama, nag think aloud lang. 😉
Windchimes 
hahaha! don’t worry. it’s not madrama at all. NOW is one thing i consciously remind myself about all the time NOW because i tend to wander off the past and whine about it and dream big time about the future, trying to paint the most beautiful tomorrow and get frustrated when it’s not. NOW,i realized how precious the NOW is… one thing i appreciated the fact about NOW is that it keeps you grounded.. why? i think the answer deserve an entry to my blog SOON… hahahaha! ang labo ko no?
Comment by ifoundme — December 31, 2008 @ 9:36 pm
hahaha labo.. kidding! Happy New year IFM! More happy moments to come your way my friend!
OnTopic: Yes, somehow I get what you mean when you say how NOW keeps you grounded. It reminds us that we are as vulnerable as anybody else to pain, failures and frustrations. That how high we fly before can be also as low we fall the next moment. And I think more importantly, NOW reminds us that we have that time, moment and space to make a choice, to take time and regroup and be a better us… for us. NOW is God’s gift to us, to remind us that HE allows us a second chance to happiness.
Labo rin ba? hehe.. not sure if same sa naiisip mo, just the quickest thing that came to mind when i read your comment. 🙂
will be waiting for that post ha.. Happy new year again! **cheers!**
Comment by didee — January 1, 2009 @ 1:43 am
deebangs, mo simang lang ko sa topic on NOW. i so love your lily in the pond. murag gamay nalang makuptan na gyud nako. it is so real and so alive. this is what NOW means gyud, to be alive and present in every moment. i miss you and your posts. i miss the girl who can write her heart out but i know how busy you are and moments like this, when you step out of your busy schedule and write, are moments that are truly special and happy for me. happy new year. libog pud.
Comment by konsuy — January 1, 2009 @ 11:04 am
i am always in ear splitting grin whenever i see your comments on my very seldom posts hehehehe.
Yes, i ABSOLUTELY agree.. NOW means being ALIVE and REAL. You’ve summed up my thots in two words. hahahaha.
Moments with you chi are truly special. Na kape ta na! hahahaha.. i wish 😉
Comment by didee — January 2, 2009 @ 11:56 am
what a breathtakingly beautiful picture, didee! =)
amen to these thoughts. =)
Comment by aileen — January 2, 2009 @ 5:28 pm
thanks a million teacher Ai 🙂
Comment by didee — January 4, 2009 @ 1:56 am
It reminds us that we are as vulnerable as anybody else to pain, failures and frustrations. but NOW reminds us that we have that time, moment and space to make a choice, to take time and regroup and be a better for us. NOW is God’s gift to us, to remind us that HE allows us a second chance to happiness.
Comment by beckysmith — July 20, 2011 @ 2:11 pm