January 24, 2008

i go numb

Filed under: Rant — didee @ 6:35 pm

just let me rant.. itsy bitsy please… ๐Ÿ™‚

Last week I’ve written an entry which lasted only about 5 minutes on air before I pushed it back to draft section. My friend Konsuy was able to read it and she got the details from our chat conversation. (Remember the Prayer before rant entry? That took the place of the deleted post)

Writing is definitely therapeutic. This I can prove time and again. As most bloggers would have it, this little nook in cyberspace is just a peek of our little private hell and heaven. Especially those who’ve been blogging for quite awhile, you know what I’m talking about.

So after a few minutes of posting that entry, I figured I was able to flush a bit of the toxic stuff out of my system already, and I removed it online. But hep hep hep, ni level up na naman ang subject of my irritation and here she is taking up space again.

That day, I’ve written about my duel with hell all courtesy of this girl. No, nothing serious happened, and no blood was spilled (yet). On the contrary, I pasted a smile in my face and count 1 to 1 million in my head just to clear my mind. (Yes, counting does help). And after years of dealing with her I’ve learned the art of going to the bathroom and praying and not come out till my mind is cleared. Oh good Lord help!

You know how it is when some people really gets to you? Like a flea you just want to get rid off? Lami tirison?

I hate getting angry. It’s one of the emotions I try not to get close to. I hate getting pissed because it is such a waste of energy. With this one in particular though, I’ve mastered the art of shrugging it off and play happy. I don’t know why but smiling and acting as if I’m the happiest girl in the world irks her up or makes her back off. I just don’t get it. (Even after all these years! Trust me, years of observation has proven me correct on this one. )

Oh yes, the best vengeance is to live a happy life. No words, no rebuttals, no nothing. (well… in this case though)

I’m not saying I’m living a ridiculously happy life, I’m just trying to find something good in it everyday, and be happy about it. Shouldn’t we all? But then again, what does she know.

Her own roommate can’t even stand her. And she wonders why some people are happy and enjoying their life. Why people have get together and she’s usually not on the list of the invited. Duh?! Go figure.

If she only knew that those times I invited her was because no one remembers or cares to tag her along. Grrrrrrrr!

But now, I am just tired of her crap. REALLY ABSOLUTELY FREAKING TIRED!

I’m not in the habit of closing doors on people, but she closed the door on my face even after my playing all nice and friendly and kalimtan na lang arun walay gubot, everybody happy. And no, I’m not just talking about a figurative door, i mean this literally too.

Uban pa to naduklan na ni siya ug up, down, side by side. tsk tsk.

So I’ll go numb. As what J said, live as if she doesn’t exist. And I actually don’t feel bad doing so because I know I’ve done my share of patience all these years.

Don’t complicate my life just because yours sucks.

I just wish she stops pushing the wrong buttons, cause she just might get what she had coming.

Now, let’s see if this post would stay up or join his other friend in the draft category.



  1. There will always be people whom we don’t agree and who rub us the wrong way. There seems to be no amount of patience on our part that could possibly eradicate that feeling. We all know we should take the high road and not succumb to these feelings of hatred. Sometimes though, it just feels good to let it alllllll hang out.

    Rant my friend, rant!

    The most patient ones are usually who kick a** (can I say that online? hahah) the most ๐Ÿ˜‰


    Comment by Seleria — January 24, 2008 @ 9:21 pm

  2. Hahaha you just saved this post from being deleted!

    Haha… yeah i know… sometimes, you just gotta rant and rid yourself of the toxic stuff…

    Thanks Aby ๐Ÿ™‚

    Comment by didee — January 24, 2008 @ 9:36 pm

  3. rant’ll do you good. bad energy needs to be released by any form. blogging is therapeutic.
    you want to be evilish? read the book..hehehe..
    seriously, i agree with as if she does not exist. i see those kind everyday. i ignore them like a wilted flower.
    if she closed the door on you, lock yours and refuse entry. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Comment by isza — January 25, 2008 @ 12:21 am

  4. hi mai… heheh… yeah… this girl calls for a good ranting… id rather do this than waste energy trying to figure her out… hehe maka-ulbo ug kaspa oi hahah..

    haha i so like your term ha .. “wilted flower”… synonymous with losyang? heheh

    Comment by didee — January 25, 2008 @ 12:44 am

  5. makahilak ug puffcorn ug maka-ubo ug kaspa. new phrases that is now part of my vocabulary. thanks to you.

    hoi inday deebangs, she doesn’t deserve to be noticed by you. forget this wilted flower. she doesn’t exist. cherub biya ka, dili mo ka level ever. suya na siya nimo.

    Comment by konsuy — January 25, 2008 @ 1:02 pm

  6. Oh… lol looks like I managed to spark up some other comments too ๐Ÿ˜€

    You’re welcome. Hope you’re feeling better. Have a happy day.

    Comment by Seleria — January 25, 2008 @ 1:07 pm

  7. Hi chi… hahahaha more new phrases coming your way…ma windang jud ka ma’am ๐Ÿ™‚

    ohhhh i sooo love my friends hahaha…. who needs her when i got you *wink*

    weee i am now a cherub… gagmay nga angels sah? hahaha… bagay jud chi….gamay , lol ๐Ÿ™‚

    Comment by didee — January 25, 2008 @ 1:47 pm

  8. Hi Aby! oh yes you did my friend… looks like this post is gonna be staying online for good hehe.. ๐Ÿ™‚

    have a happy day too ๐Ÿ™‚

    Comment by didee — January 25, 2008 @ 1:48 pm

  9. sagpa-a para human dayon.. hehehee bitaw being insensitive and trying not to care is realllyy really hard ( murag na post naman sab ni nako before ) pero usahay we just have to do it .. deadmaha na lang na siya.. keber lang … ๐Ÿ˜€

    Comment by ideru — January 25, 2008 @ 7:07 pm

  10. idel! hehehe

    haha… maybe need nga i-reiterate na nga point mao na comment nmu balik hehe ๐Ÿ™‚
    kevs jud hehehe.. sofar kevs n lng ko bahala cya hihihi…

    take care and have fun sa nihon! ๐Ÿ™‚

    Comment by didee — January 25, 2008 @ 7:49 pm

  11. ate di!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    nah….. watch out lng jd na cya bayhana na!!!!
    strike out na sha nako ha
    gisagad na nya tanan nako amiga..
    and mam, its ok to rant.. imagina nlng ko human nako basa ani..

    Comment by michelle — January 28, 2008 @ 9:35 pm

  12. […] at the same time, I want some therapeutic blogging, a.k.a rant blog, about a certain someone you’ve probably encountered a few pages back if you’ve been here […]

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