Written last Aug 25.
A year ago today I felt for the first time how it is to be away from home. I resigned from my job in Cebu, checked what meager savings I have, a portion went to my family and a portion I pocketed for the next step I am about to take.
This is not just another business trip where I will be back a few weeks or months after. There is no sure job waiting for me on the other end. It made me even think if I am “marketable” enough. LOL. I wasn’t so sure really of my “market value“.
I remember telling my friends that if all else fails, I’ll do door to door and offer manicure, pedicure services. Hahaha.
I was told of how statistically i am bound to fail or succeed in what I am about to do. And sometimes the number can really scare you when you get overwhelmed by them.
One of my philosophies in life is to soak things in prayer before taking that first step, or drawing the sword or counting the soon to be exploits. Prayer is the best thing I can do, and it’s free. It’s not a religious thing, it’s relationship.
Before I left, I held on to the verses He gave me the day I asked if this is really I should be doing. I left armed with nothing but His words, “Cast your nets into Open sea”.
The sea was a big unknown. It both scared and excited me. The monsters that lurked underneath the surface can be frightening. But the openness and mystery of the ocean screams adventure.
He who promised is faithful, and my first phone call home was to tell them that I got the job.
I was blessed with angels along the way. And the bloopers I made can be a great recipe for good conversation. And somehow I’ve learned how to steer clear of things that could harm me. Not all fun is clean fun.
I savor learning from the people around me. Hearing stories, making them and sharing them makes this city state a warm hodgepodge. From here I’ve been to many places, that blew kisses on my lust for travel.
A year ago today, I left home to be the big girl that I need to be. And I thank Him who armed me with enough wit to take each step as charmingly as I can, taking each quivering step one after the other.
